Thanks...

   I just noticed I'm only 104 page views away from having 500 views. That's pretty cool. I remember two month ago when I didn't think anyone would read this. I even gave up for awhile >.<. Thanks to those of you that have stuck with me.


   So today is our church's Thanksgiving Dinner. Normally I wouldn't devote a post to something like that, but I realized I haven't posted in a while and I want to say what I'm thankful for.
   I'm thankful for my friends. They've stuck by me through so much. I can be a psychotic mess sometimes and it takes a lot to tough through that. Even for me. So them still being there despite the fact that i can turn into a crazy bitch from hell speaks volumes. I couldn't ask for better people in my life.
   I'm thankful for Michael.  He's without a doubt the sweetest guy I met. I'm so lucky to have him. He makes me realize how special and beautiful I am, especially when I can't see it myself. He genuinely cares about me, and that's all I could ever ask of anyone. I love him so much and I'm glad I'm his.
   I'm thankful for my family. I don't think about this one much, but some recent events have made me realize just how special they really are. I forget just how uncommon it is to have parents that are still in their first marriage. I forget that not all parents tell you you're beautiful, smart, or even just say I love you. It's hard to appreciate that until you realize what some other people have to put up with...
   I'm also thankful for my life.  I don't admit it often, but thinking about it now, I really am. I've attempted suicide at least five times. I'm so glad none of those retarded attempts worked. I couldn't imagine missing out on everything that's happened in my life since then. Sometimes it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but Michael told me something once that really rang true, "There aren't enough days in your life to have bad ones." I realize that no matter what happens, I'm always worth it, and everything will work itself out in the long run.


   So what are you really thankful for? Think about it...