I have my love.--I have my doubts.

Oh wow. I am a sorry excuse for a blogger >.<

I'm sorry I've kinda let any of you that read this down. It's kinda sad that I kept up with this better when I was working. Well, now I'm unemployed. But, it's opened up some new windows. Like, now I've learned to be very patient. No one will call back after I've sent them an application. Also, I've learned that snails mate for an entire 24 hours before any penetration occurs lol. And guys are awkward when they live together, and I'm awkward around guys I like and around people that like me. No, they're not all guys, which makes it even more awkward, but hey. A person is a person... And I may be a dreamer..

Wow, I'm so hyper! Sorry lol. Uhm...well thats all I wanted to say! Just wanted to let you all know I'm still alive! And I love Mewithoutyou. And I'm going on a date tomorrow with this silly guy. And I get to carve my first pumpkin of the year tomorrow. Anyways, that is all! Goodnight world!!!

You're lucky..

I was in love once.
But not like you,
At least, I don't think so.
Or maybe he didn't love me like she does.
Not even the seas can part you
and there I was in the same room,
worlds away.
And worlds away I stay
side by side.
And you're closer to her than I'll ever be
To anyone.
It makes me jealous,
but not in the way you think.
Just to know that you can feel love
know love
be loved
even across the world
and all I'll ever have is lies.
You're lucky.
Don't forget it.


  Sorry I've been super busy lately. Hopefully now with work over and band almost over I'll be able to post more. This was just something I thought about this afternoon. Not polished up or anything, but here you go.